(updated) cLoSiNg CiRcLeS

“It is always important to know when something has reached its end. Closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesn’t matter what we call it; what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over.” – The Zahir

I don’t know exactly why I chose that quote to start my post today. Maybe it’s my need of doing what I have to do, but without knowing how, or worst, knowing, but not daring.
We have talked before about walking through new paths and opening awaiting gates….but, what about closing the ones we left behind?
I’ve learned so far that if those doors remain opened, the echoes of what went before follow us just some steps away, they puff in our neck…..and one day, they hunt us.

My phone rang and I heard “I’m 10 km away and 22 years later”. I left the house and went walking to the route….I was about to see my past coming back.
I stood at the bus stop, legs shaking, heart in the neck, and hands rubbing together…”what am I going to say!!”
A car stopped, the window went down and a man says “Excuse me, have you seen a chubby girl around here?” I started laughing, my legs got firm again and I said, “Yes, I think she was waiting for a thin guy with curly hair”. He opened the door, got off the car and we hugged very tight for a long while.
It was a sunny afternoon and we went to the beach, we sat on the sand facing the ocean and watching seagulls. We talked, talked and talked for hours; I think we pretty much covered these 22 years. There was plenty of laughter and stories….and then a long silence preceding the question “Why did we drift apart?” We couldn’t find an answer because the last thing I remember is that we loved each other a lot…….life is life.
Through the years I’ve thought many times about him, every Christmas time, every presidential election, when people return en masse to their home town, I’ve asked if someone had seen him, but I never got a positive answer.
He asked about me too, I never knew it until today.
I’ve met many people in my life, and I’ve experienced all kind of deep feelings, however, he was the only one who left this lasting curiosity inside me. I needed to know about him. I’m sure now; I needed to close the circle.
It was 5 o’clock…we stood up, and took a walk along the shore; he had to be at the airport at 7, time was against us and there was so much to say…odd as it may sound, we walked in silence. We stopped walking and an anticipating look passed our faces….we hugged again and for a second, all those years seemed to vanish. We were the same kids from the past.

If we are going to see each other again? Probably. If something will happen? I guess not. He has his life there; I have mine here, and long distance relationships are not meant to be. That I know. But I also know that this encounter was good for both of us, we owed each other a conversation, and we owed each other closing the circle.

He called me from Buenos Aires some minutes ago, he was driving his car and thinking that maybe, just maybe his feelings are still alive….I told him that maybe I felt the same, just maybe.
He turned the music on and dedicated this song to me….
and I dedicated this one for him…. then we hung up.

Well, that’s all for today. I thought you would like to know…..
I’m still too busy in my job, but I’ll come back soon.

Oh! By the way, he doesn’t look like the picture I posted before. LOL

I found this and I though it would be nice to share it with you all

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26 responses to “(updated) cLoSiNg CiRcLeS

  1. Icarus

    It has been a long, long wait. 22 years for you; 16 days for the rest of us.
    You have written a wonderful,touching, open-hearted account, and (like all good writers of such stories) you leave the gate open, with unanswered questions, into th future and the sequel.
    It feels like it was a very strong day, the past wrapped up like a Christmas gift in the present. It brings colour to a grey wet day in Portugal, also with too much work.
    Another circle…full of kisses,
    SXXXXXXXXXX

  2. Icarus

    It has been a long, long wait. 22 years for you; 16 days for the rest of us.
    You have written a wonderful,touching, open-hearted account, and (like all good writers of such stories) you leave the gate open, with unanswered questions, into th future and the sequel.
    It feels like it was a very strong day, the past wrapped up like a Christmas gift in the present. It brings colour to a grey wet day in Portugal, also with too much work.
    Another circle…full of kisses,
    SXXXXXXXXXX

  3. Fabrizio

    WOAH! If you’re gonna shoot a movie, mind the young italian blog-friend artist!!!

    I’m the director you’re looking for!

    Great post, Ani.

    It would make stone fall in love…!

    Fab

  4. Fabrizio

    WOAH! If you’re gonna shoot a movie, mind the young italian blog-friend artist!!!

    I’m the director you’re looking for!

    Great post, Ani.

    It would make stone fall in love…!

    Fab

  5. RUTH

    I think Icarus and fabrizio have said it all. A wonderful post…ahhhhhhh
    {{HUGS}}
    Rx

  6. RUTH

    I think Icarus and fabrizio have said it all. A wonderful post…ahhhhhhh
    {{HUGS}}
    Rx

  7. Audrey

    A lovely post Analia, it must have been good to catch up in so many ways after such a long time…Worth the wait and thank you for sharing this.

    Loved the video update, it made me smile too..

    LovexxxxxAuds

  8. Audrey

    A lovely post Analia, it must have been good to catch up in so many ways after such a long time…Worth the wait and thank you for sharing this.

    Loved the video update, it made me smile too..

    LovexxxxxAuds

  9. Icarus

    A lot of circles going around these days!
    Thanks a lot for being there today! Isn’t Piriquito something?
    SXXXXXXX

  10. Icarus

    A lot of circles going around these days!
    Thanks a lot for being there today! Isn’t Piriquito something?
    SXXXXXXX

  11. ugyen

    HI Analia,
    WOW… Your blog look beautiful with this new templates, awesome background as well.. anyway just wanted to say hi, been long since i came here… missed reading your post.. take care.. you have a good day
    regards
    ugyen

  12. ugyen

    HI Analia,
    WOW… Your blog look beautiful with this new templates, awesome background as well.. anyway just wanted to say hi, been long since i came here… missed reading your post.. take care.. you have a good day
    regards
    ugyen

  13. Nikon

    A great story Ani, I’m glad that you had a good meeting and possibly another to come. It’s so nice that you are sharing it with us – Kisses.

  14. Nikon

    A great story Ani, I’m glad that you had a good meeting and possibly another to come. It’s so nice that you are sharing it with us – Kisses.

  15. QUASAR9

    Life is movement
    from this moment to the next
    just like the changing text.

    We never know which is the best
    if wenever try some of the rest!

  16. QUASAR9

    Life is movement
    from this moment to the next
    just like the changing text.

    We never know which is the best
    if wenever try some of the rest!

  17. Analía

    Stewart, another circle indeed. I have the feeling that by closing one, I’ve opened another. Let’s see what life brings this time

    Fab, yesss you’ll be the director. What about making the movie with your scketches. Thanks for your comments my friend.

    Ruth, my dear, what do you think about this story? Isn’t it strange the way life changes in a minute? Love amiga.

    Ugyen (Ugeyn, the way I ALWAYS write your name first!!)Thank you for visiting me. I visited you too, to celebrate the birthday of your king. Hugsss (I love that cap)

    Paul, thank you for comming, I love when you do. Hugs and kisses for you too!!

    Auds, I’m glad you liked the post and more if by reading it, you smiled. You are such a great friend.
    Hugssssss

    ANI

  18. Analía

    Stewart, another circle indeed. I have the feeling that by closing one, I’ve opened another. Let’s see what life brings this time

    Fab, yesss you’ll be the director. What about making the movie with your scketches. Thanks for your comments my friend.

    Ruth, my dear, what do you think about this story? Isn’t it strange the way life changes in a minute? Love amiga.

    Ugyen (Ugeyn, the way I ALWAYS write your name first!!)Thank you for visiting me. I visited you too, to celebrate the birthday of your king. Hugsss (I love that cap)

    Paul, thank you for comming, I love when you do. Hugs and kisses for you too!!

    Auds, I’m glad you liked the post and more if by reading it, you smiled. You are such a great friend.
    Hugssssss

    ANI

  19. Leyla

    Siempre es preciso saber cuando se acaba una etapa de la vida.
    Si insistes en permanecer en ella, mas allá del tiempo necesario, pierdes la alegría y el sentido del resto…. P.Coelho

    Mi Querida Ani, espero te encuentres bien y tengas muy buen comienzo de semana..
    Besos

  20. Leyla

    Siempre es preciso saber cuando se acaba una etapa de la vida.
    Si insistes en permanecer en ella, mas allá del tiempo necesario, pierdes la alegría y el sentido del resto…. P.Coelho

    Mi Querida Ani, espero te encuentres bien y tengas muy buen comienzo de semana..
    Besos

  21. Keshi

    WB Analia I missed ya.

    Nice post…got me thinking. Well Life is all abt change…movement and new experiences. Whatever u choose to do I wish u well.

    Keshi.

  22. Keshi

    WB Analia I missed ya.

    Nice post…got me thinking. Well Life is all abt change…movement and new experiences. Whatever u choose to do I wish u well.

    Keshi.

  23. inaruaf

    I wish that someone i once knew could have read what you wrote.

    I dont have those 22 years.

  24. inaruaf

    I wish that someone i once knew could have read what you wrote.

    I dont have those 22 years.

  25. Analía

    quasar9, beautiful words, thank you!

    Keshi sweety, thak you for stopping by, and for your good wishes. Hugs 🙂

    Leyla amiga, buena semana para ti tambien. Ahh me encanta Cohelo tambien!

    inaruaf, believe me…this person one day will know. Hugs for you and thanks

  26. Analía

    quasar9, beautiful words, thank you!

    Keshi sweety, thak you for stopping by, and for your good wishes. Hugs 🙂

    Leyla amiga, buena semana para ti tambien. Ahh me encanta Cohelo tambien!

    inaruaf, believe me…this person one day will know. Hugs for you and thanks

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