I’m sTiLL StAnDiNg

Some time ago I learned a word from Ruth that has become very important in my life: Serendipity. In these days that I’m going through, no other word is better than this one to explain what has happened to me.
The day I found out about the end of my love story I wanted to die, that’s the naked truth. I could have done anything to ease my pain, however it was not meant to happen. A private student was with me at that moment, more a friend than a student actually, and he stayed by my side, watching after me for hours. Another friend was on her way home, and suddenly she felt the urgency of coming to my house, she didn’t know why, but now I’m glad she came.
I met long time ago a boy named Jose Alberto, whose nick is Baby Jordan; he became my cyber nephew and I love him with all my heart. He was without internet connection for some months, so we lost contact for a while, guess what! He appeared out of nothing that day late at night in my MSN saying TITI I LOVE YOU, (titi means aunty) He made me smile despite of all my tears.
In 2000 I had a Swedish boy, an exchange student, living in my house for a whole year and soon he became like a son for us. For different reasons we lost contact some years ago, so I’ve been looking for him since then. Last week I came across a phone number in the white pages of Sweden and I sent a TXT message just in case. It was him!!!! He answered yesterday and I smiled again for the second time. SERENDIPITY!!!!
It goes without saying that my blog family has been right there for me in this moment of sorrow, and though it might not be serendipity this time with them, it was serendipity the day they felt something wrong was going on and they started asking and sending emails to check if everything was all right.
Maybe God put his hand on me, because I feel I’ve been blessed in so many ways.
Yes, I’m still sad, but I’m not blind. I can see that there’s magic in life and that I’m loved. That’s reason enough to start picking up the pieces of my heart and keep on walking, isn’t it?
Love you all.

I translated the song in 2 minutes, so there might be mistakes, however it’s a beautiful one and I wanted to share it with you today…..it’s my heart speaking.

Nobody speaks to me about you, yet I miss you
I can’t resign myself to forgetting you, even though the years go by
What is of you? Where are you?
How far are you from my loneliness?How much I wish to know if you still remember me,
If you’ve asked for me, if my absence hurts you
What has changed in you, and in your heart?
How has your life go on after my love?

Since you are not here, I can’t any longer find again the meaning of freedom
I can’t image to start again without you
I want to know what happened to you.
Since you are not here…….happened to you.

Since you are not here, only pain lives in me.
My life goes away without knowing about you.

Since you are not here, I can’t any longer find again the meaning of freedom
I can’t image to start again without you
I want to know what happened to you.
Since you are not here…….happened to you.

Since you are not here, only pain lives in me.
My life goes away without knowing about you……my love.

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8 responses to “I’m sTiLL StAnDiNg

  1. RUTHhttp://ruthjen.blogspot.com/

    Analia I was so thrilled to see that you had written a post and happy that in some small way people in your life have been with you to help you through these early days. I know how sad you are but between us all…your cyber friends and your “in the flesh” friends…we will see you through it all. Love and {{{HUGS}}}
    Rx
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  2. RUTH

    Analia I was so thrilled to see that you had written a post and happy that in some small way people in your life have been with you to help you through these early days. I know how sad you are but between us all…your cyber friends and your “in the flesh” friends…we will see you through it all. Love and {{{HUGS}}}
    Rx
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  3. RUTH

    Analia I was so thrilled to see that you had written a post and happy that in some small way people in your life have been with you to help you through these early days. I know how sad you are but between us all…your cyber friends and your “in the flesh” friends…we will see you through it all. Love and {{{HUGS}}}
    Rx
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  4. Audrey

    Analia

    Im crying a mixture of tears,some of joy that you have found those special people again,just when you need them most, and in sadness as I know your hurting deeply right now. Life itself, Im sure will send you the healing balm your soul needs in many shapes and forms, the ones you speak of tonight are important, as is your courage to see the magic, still sit alongside your sadness..You are blessed and you Analia are also the blessing x x

    Keep strong beautiful

  5. Audrey

    Analia

    Im crying a mixture of tears,some of joy that you have found those special people again,just when you need them most, and in sadness as I know your hurting deeply right now. Life itself, Im sure will send you the healing balm your soul needs in many shapes and forms, the ones you speak of tonight are important, as is your courage to see the magic, still sit alongside your sadness..You are blessed and you Analia are also the blessing x x

    Keep strong beautiful

  6. RUTH

    Sending {{{HUGS}}}

  7. RUTHhttp://ruthjen.blogspot.com/

    Sending {{{HUGS}}}

  8. RUTH

    Sending {{{HUGS}}}

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