No TiTlE ToDaY

I spent alone New Year’s Eve. I thought it was gonna be easier, but it wasn’t….it wasn’t easy at all. I checked my watch once and again waiting for midnight….minutes seemed to run too slow and my loneliness seemed to grow too fast.
I went to my roof right before 12 and sat down in my favourite chair to watch the sky. It was a starry night and the moon was brighter than ever or so it seemed.
At 12 the sky was covered by beautiful fireworks, and from my particular viewpoint it was really overwhelming. I grabbed my glass, and I made a toast in the air to many many things….. And I cried for a while, it was like washing my soul to start clean this New Year….I felt my tears that way, but I would have chosen not to cry….

2007 is the year of my 40 and I have some months to get used to the idea…I suffered when I turned 30, imagine now!!! I have so many dreams to fight for, yet too many daydreams I have to give up… (one of them I won’t ever let go, that’s what keeps me alive day after day)
I made in silence my New Year’s resolutions….I know I will forget most of them in the short run, but meanwhile it feels good to have a plan.

I didn’t take my blog tour today, maybe tomorrow if I feel more optimistic….you know, I’m getting better little by little, but I still have low days, today way too low I’ll say.
My kids came back home this afternoon and the house is active again, good thing!! I won’t have time for my blues….
Tomorrow I’ll wake up and do something Auds told me a month ago …….Take a good look in the mirror and say hello to that wonderful person reflected there………..OFTEN!!!Then give her a smile- she deserves it…..
I will, that I can promise.

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  1. RUTH

    My dear friend, It makes me sad to think that you are feeling low. New Year is a difficult time; as you may not have seen it on my blog as you are not surfing around here is the little quote I put on for New Years Day: We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce
    I am sure the heat is not helping either; it is hard to be positive when you are all hot and sticky. So put on you tiniest top and your shortest mini skirt and face the world; don’t worry about the neighbours! As for being 40 this year (you must let me know the date) you must console yourself with the fact that you will never catch ME up! LOL
    With Love
    Rx

  2. RUTHhttp://ruthjen.blogspot.com/

    My dear friend, It makes me sad to think that you are feeling low. New Year is a difficult time; as you may not have seen it on my blog as you are not surfing around here is the little quote I put on for New Years Day: We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce
    I am sure the heat is not helping either; it is hard to be positive when you are all hot and sticky. So put on you tiniest top and your shortest mini skirt and face the world; don’t worry about the neighbours! As for being 40 this year (you must let me know the date) you must console yourself with the fact that you will never catch ME up! LOL
    With Love
    Rx

  3. RUTH

    My dear friend, It makes me sad to think that you are feeling low. New Year is a difficult time; as you may not have seen it on my blog as you are not surfing around here is the little quote I put on for New Years Day: We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year’s Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce
    I am sure the heat is not helping either; it is hard to be positive when you are all hot and sticky. So put on you tiniest top and your shortest mini skirt and face the world; don’t worry about the neighbours! As for being 40 this year (you must let me know the date) you must console yourself with the fact that you will never catch ME up! LOL
    With Love
    Rx

  4. Audrey

    Analia

    Yes even when the heart is a little heavy and the tears flow…we still love, so pleased to read that you promise yourself the gift of that love…….smile to the one in the mirror…OH YES!!!!You have made many wonderful journeys in this life some tougher than others…and that beautiful woman in the mirror is the one who has made it through with an abundance still to give and recieve….Love what Ruth wrote and she is right that new page………..and its our hand that holds the pen that writes the story of how we are going to feel about things…..I promise to write my story about myself this year…I wont wait for happiness to find me…being the authoress I will write me happy….NO MATTER WHAT…its my turn…why wait for this for that….when I can choose now..this minute…its all that matters….Get that mini skirt on, let that beautiful hair fall and say to yourself ITS MY TURN!!!!

    Love to you and your tears they too are beautiful and healing xx

  5. Audrey

    Analia

    Yes even when the heart is a little heavy and the tears flow…we still love, so pleased to read that you promise yourself the gift of that love…….smile to the one in the mirror…OH YES!!!!You have made many wonderful journeys in this life some tougher than others…and that beautiful woman in the mirror is the one who has made it through with an abundance still to give and recieve….Love what Ruth wrote and she is right that new page………..and its our hand that holds the pen that writes the story of how we are going to feel about things…..I promise to write my story about myself this year…I wont wait for happiness to find me…being the authoress I will write me happy….NO MATTER WHAT…its my turn…why wait for this for that….when I can choose now..this minute…its all that matters….Get that mini skirt on, let that beautiful hair fall and say to yourself ITS MY TURN!!!!

    Love to you and your tears they too are beautiful and healing xx

  6. Icarus

    To everything – turn, turn, turn
    There is a season – turn, turn, turn;
    And a time for every purpose under heaven.

    But the moment of the new year’s arrival is not the time to be alone. It was sure to bring you – or anyone – down. So I hope that among your resolutions is one not to be forgotten: that next 31st December, you must NOT, repeat NOT be alone!!! But neither must you be with people just for the sake of not being alone. I want you to be with who you want to be with, and who want(s) to be with you Naughty! Even I managed to avoid that. Now, I’m starting to feel like your big hermano….
    Mis deseos que tu tengas un año en que vas a descubrir mucho de lo bueno e que tu cresces hasta el cielo, interiormente. E que marchas en un camiño con flores en cada lado, todos los dias hasta ese 31 de diciembro tan lontano, tan lontano, tan lontano (((((A)))))). Besitos e cariños. M-NAH- M-NAH!!!

  7. Icarushttp://theflamesofeden.blogspot.com

    To everything – turn, turn, turn
    There is a season – turn, turn, turn;
    And a time for every purpose under heaven.

    But the moment of the new year’s arrival is not the time to be alone. It was sure to bring you – or anyone – down. So I hope that among your resolutions is one not to be forgotten: that next 31st December, you must NOT, repeat NOT be alone!!! But neither must you be with people just for the sake of not being alone. I want you to be with who you want to be with, and who want(s) to be with you Naughty! Even I managed to avoid that. Now, I’m starting to feel like your big hermano….
    Mis deseos que tu tengas un año en que vas a descubrir mucho de lo bueno e que tu cresces hasta el cielo, interiormente. E que marchas en un camiño con flores en cada lado, todos los dias hasta ese 31 de diciembro tan lontano, tan lontano, tan lontano (((((A)))))). Besitos e cariños. M-NAH- M-NAH!!!

  8. Icarus

    To everything – turn, turn, turn
    There is a season – turn, turn, turn;
    And a time for every purpose under heaven.

    But the moment of the new year’s arrival is not the time to be alone. It was sure to bring you – or anyone – down. So I hope that among your resolutions is one not to be forgotten: that next 31st December, you must NOT, repeat NOT be alone!!! But neither must you be with people just for the sake of not being alone. I want you to be with who you want to be with, and who want(s) to be with you Naughty! Even I managed to avoid that. Now, I’m starting to feel like your big hermano….
    Mis deseos que tu tengas un año en que vas a descubrir mucho de lo bueno e que tu cresces hasta el cielo, interiormente. E que marchas en un camiño con flores en cada lado, todos los dias hasta ese 31 de diciembro tan lontano, tan lontano, tan lontano (((((A)))))). Besitos e cariños. M-NAH- M-NAH!!!

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