HeAvY rAiN

It’s been a while since my last post…this one goes in English so that Ruth and Mousie can understand it if they happened to drop by…..

I’ve been kind of sad lately, I’ll turn 39 in some days and the only idea makes me shiver.
I haven’t found either a place for me in this world, or a clear goal to reach.
Somehow I see myself stuck in this present, too involved with my past and too detached from my future.
Anyway, my friends won’t come to celebrate with me, they are too busy to remember and I won’t say I want them to come. I’ll go out, running away of my loneliness.

Like my soul, it’s been raining all night long; I walked slowly yesterday under pouring rain, there was no reason to run, I was already too wet, too lonely…. too sad…
There wasn’t any hand to hold, any mouth to kiss, any face to dry tenderly….stormy night in heaven, stormy night deep inside me.
I guess the sun will soon come back with a gorgeous rainbow….but for now, I’ll keep watching the clouds go by.

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  1. Mile Stones

    Analia, es verdad, todo esto (Heavy Rain)? Es tan fuerte, y si sea tu verdadera situaçión, sineto mucha solidariedad contigo.Es Sagitario? Como yo? De aqui a poco vou tener mi cumpleaños, dia 29. No los quiero, no veo nada para celebrar, festejar porque yo tambien, yo se como es, tener ese dolor de solidad. Pero me niego ir de bajo, afundir. Tu tambien tienes que levantar tu cabeza tan bella hasta el cielo e mirar para fuera. Y talvez deja de pensar tanto en ti. La felicidad existe, si, cierto. Pero no vive dentro de nosotros. Se encuentra en el acto de dar tudo a los otros. Una cosa qwue no entiendo. Hablas de tu soledad, pero en el post anterior, escreviste de tus niños. Es por eso que te pregunté si es verdad. Que te pasó??? Besitos e cariño.

  2. Mile Stones

    Analia, es verdad, todo esto (Heavy Rain)? Es tan fuerte, y si sea tu verdadera situaçión, sineto mucha solidariedad contigo.Es Sagitario? Como yo? De aqui a poco vou tener mi cumpleaños, dia 29. No los quiero, no veo nada para celebrar, festejar porque yo tambien, yo se como es, tener ese dolor de solidad. Pero me niego ir de bajo, afundir. Tu tambien tienes que levantar tu cabeza tan bella hasta el cielo e mirar para fuera. Y talvez deja de pensar tanto en ti. La felicidad existe, si, cierto. Pero no vive dentro de nosotros. Se encuentra en el acto de dar tudo a los otros. Una cosa qwue no entiendo. Hablas de tu soledad, pero en el post anterior, escreviste de tus niños. Es por eso que te pregunté si es verdad. Que te pasó??? Besitos e cariño.

  3. RUTH

    I am so sorry to hear that you feel so down. It was a few years ago when I turned 39 but I do remember thinking Oh No What next Soon I will be 40 Where has my life gone? Now I have daughters who are nearing the same crisis and I give to you what I give to them – A great big hug and the knowledge that someone DOES care. I see that milestones has commented. I do not understand what he has written but I know it will be of comfort. He has been of great support to me and I am glad that he has visited your blog.

  4. RUTHhttp://ruthjen.blogspot.com/

    I am so sorry to hear that you feel so down. It was a few years ago when I turned 39 but I do remember thinking Oh No What next Soon I will be 40 Where has my life gone? Now I have daughters who are nearing the same crisis and I give to you what I give to them – A great big hug and the knowledge that someone DOES care. I see that milestones has commented. I do not understand what he has written but I know it will be of comfort. He has been of great support to me and I am glad that he has visited your blog.

  5. RUTH

    I am so sorry to hear that you feel so down. It was a few years ago when I turned 39 but I do remember thinking Oh No What next Soon I will be 40 Where has my life gone? Now I have daughters who are nearing the same crisis and I give to you what I give to them – A great big hug and the knowledge that someone DOES care. I see that milestones has commented. I do not understand what he has written but I know it will be of comfort. He has been of great support to me and I am glad that he has visited your blog.

  6. Cale

    Amiga siempre serás tan joven como te sientas. Disfruta cada una de las etapas de la vida, con sus alegrías y sus tristezas. Si hay que llorar pues llora. Eso a veces hace bien. Y si necesitas un hombro donde hacerlo, pues aquí esta el mío, aunque este tan lejos. Llora, pero no tanto como para no ver las alegrías que están a tu lado. Un besote y un abrazo.

  7. Cale

    Amiga siempre serás tan joven como te sientas. Disfruta cada una de las etapas de la vida, con sus alegrías y sus tristezas. Si hay que llorar pues llora. Eso a veces hace bien. Y si necesitas un hombro donde hacerlo, pues aquí esta el mío, aunque este tan lejos. Llora, pero no tanto como para no ver las alegrías que están a tu lado. Un besote y un abrazo.

  8. Audrey

    Analise

    Your words are so powerful,the imagary you create so strong, It has been a poignant walk I take in the rain with you today

    Goals have their place I know they keep us looking in the right direction, but they say its the journey that truly matters perhaps more…..through your beautiful self expression the kindred souls you discover on the journey…..May you find many

    This one reminds you gently of the one you forgot perhaps..waiting to have her face gently caressed with a gentle touch and a dry towel…..You Analise, there was someone there……be gentle with yourself, be kind to yourself always..

    I smile too at the distant memory of being 40 also….gosh a full decade and more…..Oh how I wish I had known the sweetness and release that becoming 50 would bring………..AND FOREVER SIXTEEN

    Keep watching those clouds roll on by………..the rainbows on its way.

    Sending warm hugs across that mighty ocean to you all the way from a very chilly and cold Scotland

  9. Audrey

    Analise

    Your words are so powerful,the imagary you create so strong, It has been a poignant walk I take in the rain with you today

    Goals have their place I know they keep us looking in the right direction, but they say its the journey that truly matters perhaps more…..through your beautiful self expression the kindred souls you discover on the journey…..May you find many

    This one reminds you gently of the one you forgot perhaps..waiting to have her face gently caressed with a gentle touch and a dry towel…..You Analise, there was someone there……be gentle with yourself, be kind to yourself always..

    I smile too at the distant memory of being 40 also….gosh a full decade and more…..Oh how I wish I had known the sweetness and release that becoming 50 would bring………..AND FOREVER SIXTEEN

    Keep watching those clouds roll on by………..the rainbows on its way.

    Sending warm hugs across that mighty ocean to you all the way from a very chilly and cold Scotland

  10. Audrey

    Its been a long day Analia, and being FOREVER SIXTEEN!!!!!!! I have yet to master the art of hitting the right key on the keyboard……..Just noticed my spelling mistake and send hugs and apologies.

    Take a good look in the mirror and say hello to that wonderful person reflected there………..OFTEN!!!

    Then give her a smile- she deserves it.x

  11. Audrey

    Its been a long day Analia, and being FOREVER SIXTEEN!!!!!!! I have yet to master the art of hitting the right key on the keyboard……..Just noticed my spelling mistake and send hugs and apologies.

    Take a good look in the mirror and say hello to that wonderful person reflected there………..OFTEN!!!

    Then give her a smile- she deserves it.x

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